and suddenly i'm so very tired of making the paintings about solitude, and told jose unexpectedly that i wanted to make a painting of people
in a room, just talking or reaching for their drinks, 
fingertips on a plant leaf or glaring or kissing each other.

so i just had this thought, 
that actually;
possibly
fights or something,
some violent suprising action,
maybe girl fights cause
that gun-toting woman professor 
from alabama keeps 
haunting me with thoughts of
a scorned feminine brutality.
and if i'm not making paintings 
about solitude
than i'd like to make something
about girlness.
that dark horse girl thing.
the fascination with the
flung feminine thing.
that stupid myth,
cause eventhougheverything
is dry rot
i do like to make myth live.

the yard

first thing he said was
the patio is a prisonyard
yes, i agreed
and smoking, i watch
la sombra casting diagrams
and slim bird shadows flit by
for now
la luz esta crepuscular
dusk rose
and black lichens clutch a hold

Heredia, Costa Rica, March 2010